A lie.

It was a decision I will never regret.
It was not a choice I was allowed to make.
His actions sabotaged any choice I initially had.
But it was a decision that changed the course of my life.
I am still living in this change and have not yet recognized the gift that I have given to myself. However, each day, each challenge, each breath taken on my own, without my partner, has been that much harder and in return that much sweeter. I am slowly falling into a rhythm that is my own. But even I cannot blind myself to the hatred that pours out of me. I realize that there are certain things that happen to us along the way that cannot be healed with sweet words or a simple gesture, but I still long for a quick fix. I think we all do. Pain is hard to endure and no one should suffer more than is needed. Although we may think that we are done morning the loss of a chapter in our lives, we may not be. And that is why the pain still remains. It is how you turn the pain into energy that will help close doors and open hearts. You must use that energy, filling yourself to the utmost core with whatever emotion or thought that engulfs you at the time. You must never forget your past, continually live in the present and for god’s sake don’t ever refuse to live for your future. You will always be somebody’s child, somebody’s very best friend, and if you are lucky somebody’s mother, somebody’s wife. You will always have a purpose in this world, just remember to live it.